It has been quite some time since I have written. There are a couple of reasons for that. First, I was super busy with end of school stuff. Even though I missed the last several days, I still had to grade papers and projects. Then I had to get them all in on time, turn in my gradebook, do state reporting, etc. The second reason is that I've been so down about Jameson not being here.
We have tried nearly every old wives tale and piece of advice given to us to try to get Jameson here. Pineapple, spicy food, walking, swimming, Castor oil, jumping jacks, cabbage, balsamic vinegar, squats, galloping like a horse, riding on bumpy roads, plus those things I won't mention because kids might read this! I'm sure there are other things we've tried that I just can't think of right now. Nothing has worked; he simply is not ready to be born. My daddy says that he can hear everything that is going on and is too scared to come out!
I have become a hermit and do not get out often. Part of the reason is that I cannot handle the comments. "You've been pregnant forever." "You still haven't had that baby?" Trust me, people, if I could have had him by now, I would have. The other reason is that I am very uncomfortable and have to go to the bathroom about every 15 seconds. I'm not sure everyone understands. Being nice and hospitable isn't really something I can do right now! Luckily, Joey is so super nice to people that he makes up for me!
It has been great to have some time at home with Joey and the boys. We have really enjoyed the pool. It is the only place I feel a relief from all the pressure. When I get out, though, it is an adjustment and it takes a while to get my land legs back. It must be how astronauts feel after being in space. We have eaten dinner outside several nights and the weather has been perfect.
My doctor's appointment was yesterday. This is my second week to see the C.N.M. She is definitely NOT Dr. Davis. To be perfectly honest, I broke down yesterday at the appointment. I am still dilated to 1 cm and not thinned at all. I have been this way for a month despite having many contractions. When I mentioned inducing to her, she talked to the doctor that was there and she didn't want to do it. She has already induced several of Dr. Davis' patients and something went wrong with one of them. She is a bit "gun shy" now. Dr. Davis comes back Monday, so Jameson will definitely be here by sometime next week!
The "Guess the Date" calendar is almost obsolete. It only goes through Saturday, Annette's birthday. She really wants him to be born on her birthday, as does Justin! I never thought I would make it this far and this is the longest I have ever been pregnant. Even going by my original due date, June 2, I still have surpassed the time I carried Jackson and Justin.
Part of the reason I am so upset about him not being here is that I only have a short time to spend with him this summer because of our school calendar. People have said all along that I timed his birth date well, but to me it is terrible. I will not get the typical 12 weeks unless I miss part of the school year. Missing the end of the year is very different than missing the beginning. It would be very difficult to miss the beginning of the year and a new group of students. Each day that passes is one less day I have to spend with him.
This has been a long post, but I had much to say! Hopefully the next time I write, I will have Jameson by my side!
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